pertanyaan ini muncul begitu saja di kepalaku saat duduk memandang jalanan di depan balkon kamar sepupuku. di jalan itu orang dengan ringan berjalan tanpa khawatir ditabrak kendaraan. jalan itu memang khusus disediakan pengelola sebuah mal. Jalan itu semakin nyaman karena dilindungi sebuah atap fiber glass.
Entah kenapa tiba-tiba ada pertanyaan seperti itu. Tiba-tiba saja mencuat setelah empat hari aku memperhatikan jalan masuk dari mal itu. Mungkin manusia yang sama – termasuk aku --- sudah ratusan kali mengunjungi mal itu. tapi mereka masih datang dan datang lagi.
lantas apa yang kurang dan mereka harus mencari lagi? entahlah. aku tak mendapat jawaban apapun karena pertanyaan itu hanya dalam hati saja.
namun pertanyaan itu tiba-tiba mengarah pada diri sendiri. apa yang dirimu cari sekarang? kenapa dirimu masih merasa kekurangan? masih bejibunkan keinginanmu yang belum dipenuhi?
ku jawab; "tentu masih banyak."
"apa itu" otakku bertanya lagi
aku kembali menjawab pertanyaan itu;"aku ingin punya mmm...apa ya,"
and suddenly i was thinking
i have anything. i having a motorcycle, i have a notebook, i have a good friends and they're a lot of friends. i have an enough good job, i have a nice sis and bro also my niece and nephew. i just have a new nice who was born my sister las saturday. i have a great mom and superbest uncle and auntie.
after my parents divorced, having all of these things make me always bless to Allah.
so what do i need again?
what do i look anymore?
actually, i have a lot of wishes but right now i am being afraid that it's not important anymore. i am afraid it just a greedness of me as a human being. so when i wrote this i stop to think 'bout what i want and what i need. i think to give but i am afraid i'm not effort it. so i don't wanna to think about it even the question stay on my mind.
i wanna ask someone to answer this question. maybe he can tell me. maybe i am being lost in a confusing world. or maybe i just don't know what i do,
i am totally confused
someone or something, ugh...i don't know which one is right. but i remember i listened a sentence that people who confuse to her/his life is needed to be closed to the God, to Allah.
when a man/women don't know what they wanna to get, it's time to comeback again to Allah. maybe it is right but it can be wrong. it's not a valid sentence despite i am not so sure with the resources who said this word.
hahaha..it a kind of fun but it is very...very seriously. how can a man/women don't know what they want to do. usually, the old people will say; "the purpose of human to life in this world is to pray to Allah and being a good person. so you can go to heaven when you die."
okay..maybe that is right. but it is trully only that?? you sure that our life is only for praying and being a good person with another people? is that simple?
kawanku yang baik berkata manusia sekarang terjebak dalam absurditas kehidupan yang semuanya dinilai secara materi. Kamu harus punya ini, punya itu, beli ini dan beli itu. Sesungguhnya itu absurd, apa benar manusia sungguh-sungguh membutuhkan benda mati yang sebenarnya hanya membuat sumpek rumah dan memenuhi isi lemari baju?
Kata kawanku yang baik itu juga, keabsurdan itu datang karena manusia selalu merasa hampa, kosong. Maka supaya tidak jadi kosong manusia pergi ke mall dan mengisinya dengan keramaian orang yang berlalu lalang di gedung itu. Tapi sejatinya mereka menjadi hampa ketika meninggalkan lokasi mall. Makanya itu mall selalu ramai dipenuhi orang. Tampaknya tengah menghabiskan duit mereka yang beratus-ratus juta tapi sebenarnya penuh dengan orang yang hampa kehidupannya.
Sound a pathetic things. Yup. Yup. If my friend are right, off course it is something bad news. What a poor people they are. Am i the one of that people? Wew....i wish i am not.
Entah kenapa tiba-tiba ada pertanyaan seperti itu. Tiba-tiba saja mencuat setelah empat hari aku memperhatikan jalan masuk dari mal itu. Mungkin manusia yang sama – termasuk aku --- sudah ratusan kali mengunjungi mal itu. tapi mereka masih datang dan datang lagi.
lantas apa yang kurang dan mereka harus mencari lagi? entahlah. aku tak mendapat jawaban apapun karena pertanyaan itu hanya dalam hati saja.
namun pertanyaan itu tiba-tiba mengarah pada diri sendiri. apa yang dirimu cari sekarang? kenapa dirimu masih merasa kekurangan? masih bejibunkan keinginanmu yang belum dipenuhi?
ku jawab; "tentu masih banyak."
"apa itu" otakku bertanya lagi
aku kembali menjawab pertanyaan itu;"aku ingin punya mmm...apa ya,"
and suddenly i was thinking
i have anything. i having a motorcycle, i have a notebook, i have a good friends and they're a lot of friends. i have an enough good job, i have a nice sis and bro also my niece and nephew. i just have a new nice who was born my sister las saturday. i have a great mom and superbest uncle and auntie.
after my parents divorced, having all of these things make me always bless to Allah.
so what do i need again?
what do i look anymore?
actually, i have a lot of wishes but right now i am being afraid that it's not important anymore. i am afraid it just a greedness of me as a human being. so when i wrote this i stop to think 'bout what i want and what i need. i think to give but i am afraid i'm not effort it. so i don't wanna to think about it even the question stay on my mind.
i wanna ask someone to answer this question. maybe he can tell me. maybe i am being lost in a confusing world. or maybe i just don't know what i do,
i am totally confused
someone or something, ugh...i don't know which one is right. but i remember i listened a sentence that people who confuse to her/his life is needed to be closed to the God, to Allah.
when a man/women don't know what they wanna to get, it's time to comeback again to Allah. maybe it is right but it can be wrong. it's not a valid sentence despite i am not so sure with the resources who said this word.
hahaha..it a kind of fun but it is very...very seriously. how can a man/women don't know what they want to do. usually, the old people will say; "the purpose of human to life in this world is to pray to Allah and being a good person. so you can go to heaven when you die."
okay..maybe that is right. but it is trully only that?? you sure that our life is only for praying and being a good person with another people? is that simple?
kawanku yang baik berkata manusia sekarang terjebak dalam absurditas kehidupan yang semuanya dinilai secara materi. Kamu harus punya ini, punya itu, beli ini dan beli itu. Sesungguhnya itu absurd, apa benar manusia sungguh-sungguh membutuhkan benda mati yang sebenarnya hanya membuat sumpek rumah dan memenuhi isi lemari baju?
Kata kawanku yang baik itu juga, keabsurdan itu datang karena manusia selalu merasa hampa, kosong. Maka supaya tidak jadi kosong manusia pergi ke mall dan mengisinya dengan keramaian orang yang berlalu lalang di gedung itu. Tapi sejatinya mereka menjadi hampa ketika meninggalkan lokasi mall. Makanya itu mall selalu ramai dipenuhi orang. Tampaknya tengah menghabiskan duit mereka yang beratus-ratus juta tapi sebenarnya penuh dengan orang yang hampa kehidupannya.
Sound a pathetic things. Yup. Yup. If my friend are right, off course it is something bad news. What a poor people they are. Am i the one of that people? Wew....i wish i am not.
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